Junk food is addicting

So... I don't know if it's something wrong with my stomach or if my eating habits are kind of going back to normal... but lately I've been trying to eat a lot healthier and every time (nearly every time, at least) I eat a meal high in fat, or oil it makes me feel ill. I suppose that's a good thing. I still get cravings for the junk, though. I plan on going on a temporary Slim Fast diet to try and ween myself off of the junk nearly completely.

I've already lost a few pounds... I started at 212 pounds and I'm down to 208/209 :D I found a website that measures my calorie intake and I can tell the program how many pounds I want to lose by when and it gives me an ideal calorie count to help guide me to the weight I want to be by the time I want to be it... it's pretty nifty and it puts the food I eat into perspective. It also has a graph that show what daily vitamins I'm getting out of the food that I eat. I think it's really interesting.

Anywho... on to other things. I actually got out this weekend :D It was so fun and different getting out. I didn't feel as awkward in the social situation as I normally do. It was nice. I actually got on make-up and went to dinner and the movies on Friday. On Saturday I played putt putt with a friend and her little cousins, then had the BEST chinese food (I don't diet on weekends lol) all in all it was a nice weekend and it's not over yet lol

Bah... I'm a bad blogger!

Procrastination always seems to get the best of me. Blegh. I seem to have fallen off the bandwagon... Oh well. I'll just have to hop back on. Nobody's perfect... I haven't been completely stuffing my face... but I ate pizza on a diet day and made a pan of brownies last night :( I think I need to make a food schedule and make myself stick to it. I think if I promise myself the day before that I will only eat what I write down then maybe I won't feel the urge to grab another small plate or eat that brownie when I'm already full... I think it's at least worth a shot.

I got a new Wii sensor bar :O this time it's wireless.. so kitty can't bite through any cords :D I haven't tried it out. I will later this week when I get a chance to play some Wii Fit, though. I wonder if my trainer is gonna yell at me, haha. I haven't logged on in a few months now lol. OH god... and then EA Active... I started the 30 day challenge.. did one day and had to take a break right off the bat because I was so sore.. Easy to say I lost that on lol.

Like I've been saying lately, I haven't been feeling so hot the past few weeks. Hopefully I'll start feeling better soon or I get some health insurance and go to the doctor.

On another note.. my new skin routine has its up sides and down sides.. up side is that my pores seem to be shrinking a bit, YAY.. down side is I'm getting more breakouts around my chin... hopefully that for hormonal reasons *cough cough* but I'm noticing definite changes in the texture of my skin... I can wear make-up without it looking caked on and dry! I wore make-up for the first time in like... ever the other night in front of people. My friend complimented me which made me feel that much better about it :D

I'm starting to take better care of the outside and sticking with it.. so hopefully when I find the right way to take care of me on the inside, that will stick as well :D

<3 Amanda

Oh, and I seem to have a random follower! Interesting...

New stuffs!

I ordered a bunch of shtuff from Avon! I got most of it the other day, it's pretty awesome. I haven't tried most of it out, cept on the back of my hand. But I got some stay put powdered eyeshadow and that stuff doesn't move! I love it. I might have to put some make-up on and do my hair to take some pics :D I'me supposed to take body pictures anyways... so hmm.

I didn't do all that great on my diet the past week. I haven't been feeling all that well and didn't go shopping. So I didn't exercise or eat all that great :\

And my 360 died to no Netflix or DVDs for a while... maybe that'll give me more motivation to exercise? I think I'll just be bored and watch on demand TV though lol ohhh well

Bah... I lost my train of thought.

LATERZ

Eh...

I've been lazy this weekend :( but I ate good... so that's a plus. And I was so tired this weekend that working out just wasn't on my mind... urgh. I really need to get with it. Working out will help with the energy issues.. just the first few weeks will suck. Oi Oi Oi

So soft and sugary... mmm

The past few nights I have been using a sugar scrub with olive oil on my face and my skin is already a billion times softer.. oh my goodness. Then yesterday I got some un-petroleum jelly in the mail and I put that on while my face was still a bit wet and it made it even softer. This is insane, and awesome. I love the internet and all of its secrets.

Ramble, ramble, DIE!

*sniffs* mmm. Chicken and peppers are what's for dinner for me! Gonna put some of it in a salad for work tomorrow... so good. mmm.

I think this weekend I'm gonna take full body pics and post them and start a workout routine. Then I think either every week or every other week I will repost pics so I can see my progress. I don't seem to do anything unless I have a set goal... so let's see, it's July... sooo I think my goal will be to go down a pant size by September? and losing at least 15 to 20 pounds? I dunno, my goals seem to adjust lol.

I keep meaning to make an appointment to get my hair cut and dyed, but things keep coming up and draining my money! I think I'll try and make an appointment in August for after work one day... All the over-time I'll be working sure will help. Hells yes.

I've been buying a lot of make-up lately... I think I'm gonna start wearing some. Make me purty lol I ordered a lot of Avon make-up and went to the store and got some new cover-up. I really need to look into how to wear make-up the right way, so I don't end up looking like a whore lol

This post is kinda all over the place. Maybe I'll go through all of the stuff I've been looking into in another post... So many thoughts!

Procrastination is bad, M'Kay?

I got to go home early from work today... AAAAND my kitten just went for a swim in the toilet, awesome.

I've been on an asparagus kick the past few days! God, the stuff is so good. Mmmm :) I just hate the "side effects"... oh well. I haven't been doing too good with cutting out the junk, though... it's hard to do when you're so used to eating whatever you want when you want it... I've slowly been weening myself off of the junk. I'm not quite there yet... but I'm getting close... er!

I'm going back to 8 hour shifts at work so I will be able to start exercising again, hopefully. I really need to get a new sensor bar for my Wii so I can play Wii Fit and EA Sports Active. Until then my reclining bench and exercise bike will be fine :D

Once I start working out I think I'm going to post weekly pics. Hopefully some positive comments will help keep me on track! I need motivation... oi oi oi.

(I'm such a procrastinator)

Mmm Cake

Don't you just hate it when you decide to go on a diet and you get hit with people and their baked goods?! That was a pretty kick ass piece of carrot cake, though. Mmm.

I'm already seeing an improvement in my skin from eating slightly better and taking more time to wash and hydrate my face before and after bed. Just using cosmetic wedges instead of my fingers is making a huge difference. It's awesome :D I wonder how good I can get my skin to look :D

The only thing that I really need to look into improving, that I can't figure how to do, is something for my stretch marks... I hate them and I can't seem to find anything that helps... although I haven't really tried that much either. I look things up ad some things people swear by, others bash into the ground. I hear using vitamin E in lotion helps? maybe I should try that...

My stomach!

I'm so hungry I think I could eat the whole g'damn world. Ugh. Oh well. I went shopping yesterday and bought lots of good food stuffs. I got a bunch of watermelon and salad, Grape Nuts, apples, and breakfast shakes... mmm.

I was going to get on Wii Fit/EA Sports Active last night... only to find that my kitten had chewed straight through the sensor bar cord! The brat is trying my patience... She tears everything up ; - ;

*gotta get ready for work* Hopefully I don't feel as if I'm starving all day...

Oh.. and I guess I should start weighing myself in the mornings.

Today's Weight: 210.6

What's up?!

I think I'm going to use this blog to keep track of my journey to a better me. I know that sounds really... cliche I guess, but I need change. Mentally, physically... I need to be happier, I need to lose a lot of weight, I need to get healthy. And... I suppose this is as good of a place as any to keep track of my results.